move out of my parents' house (completely and definitively)

this will happen most probably once my house is ready. Okay, plan approved! :)

one foot in but for weekends only. I don’t know if we are going to do anything about it before our House is ready… We can be living at bf’s and it’s not that bad after all. The first floor is ours and his sister and we only (??) share kitchen with his parents so it’s quite ok :)

it will be the first anniversary of my living with parents (after 5 – oops 6! – years of separation I moved in thinking I would stay with them a month or two but… it has already been over 10 months). Hope by this time I will have been on my own again!! I moved back in March last year so I would have one and a half month…

_{Don’t ask, it’s NOT easy to live with parents after these 6 years on my own. Don’t ask why I had to move in. Ask when I will be free again!}

when I’m sick, I’m so glad I haven’t moved out yet.

See… everything is going perfectly for me!! ;-)

I have had a look through flats available… nothing special really but instead

I have discovered something interesting

I am more clingy to the place we live in (house and neighbourhood, region etc.) than to my parents themselves (it’s rude but so true). And where I work is almost 80 km from here. I drive each and every day to forth and back which takes me a lot of time and therefore I wanted to move out to the city I work in. But, do I really have to live where I work, in particular when I do not really like that big city? It sounds like being dragged by my life instead of walking through it, which is a genious denial to what I am heading for. I want to create my life. I want to move out of my parents’ house. In general, I like my job to quite an extent (oh my…, what a liar you shelagh!! I appreciate my boss who is actually the only reason I am still there!! but he is really genious and wise and motivating and professional and all the best words in the world here for him).
If I were to live somewhere near the place I live, I could live even alone. But THERE, myself alone? My boyfriend is not there (not at the moment at least), my family is not there, my friends … some of them are there but still the best not. Is anybody really surprised I am glued to the place that is called my parents’ house? To add, I cannot afford (in terms of finances) living on my own here and driving to work… I’m young and I’m underpaid… (AM)
Hope I am not just making excuses …

All in all, the truth is I am leaving soon. And another truth is, I don’t want to be dragged – it’s harmful. Time to stand on my own feet.

should I stay (no, even though it would be easy to) or should I go (yes, definitely it’s time for me to go)?

is on its way to become real
yay, just mine !!!
I’m getting excited
and already know what will come next
_{(in 2-3 years I will own a house)}

we are looking forward to moving in

is a beautiful, peaceful place
that offers a very very high quality of living
and all the virtues you can ever think about

but I
want to make
my place
mine
and want to grow
and create
and be happy

I do love my parents for giving me this wonderful
opportunity to live in this place
I want to take the best out of it
and incorporate it into my own wonderful place
I’m gonna create

I am so much grateful to them
Really, loving you my parents,
dad and mum
both of you
you’re great
Thanks
Fun
Love

why I want to do it so much
I crave for creating a space for myself and my soon-to-be husband and kids in the future. I want to design it the way I like and I want to count. I want to discover how beautiful it is to live in your own house, what opportunities it brings and how I can contribute to other people’s happiness. I am sure my family will be happy there. It will give a new sense to my life.