choose joy

I fail today. I choose hate. This day freaking sucks.

I feel the need to express gratitude to the cheer fairy for giving me considerable reason to choose joy yesterday. for two days I was given 0 cheers to hand out and it was depressing. But yesterday was my day friends. O yes, it was a glorious thing… I began the day with 11 cheers, the most I’ve ever had at my disposal. As I felt slighted at my lack of cheers the previous day I was determined to give out every last one of those dang things. But much to my surprise every time I would give them away I’d be given more cheers! two more cheers, three more cheers, one more cheer! It was a cheer extravaganza! I could not be stopped! I was high on cheer spirit! My cheer streak came to an end shortly after midnight. Today I had 1 cheer, which I promptly gave away. I can tell you kids, cheer hangovers suck. It’s never fun coming down. Still, I lift my glass to the cheer fairy for the wild ride. I shall never forget our special day together.

today is hard. I had to say goodbye to someone I care about. I don’t know if there is any use worrying about it anymore. God is in control and He keeps putting up blockades so it must not be His will. God has a plan for me, I know. It’s hard to let go of something you hope for. But God keeps saying “move out of your comfort zone. branch out!” so I am. Including moving on in my life. I’m a big girl and I need to grow up. and I’m choosing to be joyful about it since He is the one making things go this way.

I know God is in everything that happens to me. This week so many things in my life fell apart, didn’t pan out, came to a screeching halt. BUT sunday during service I knew God was speaking to my heart. He was preparing me for what more would come. So monday I lost my job. Saturday my car broke down. Relationships have problems. Everyday I CHOOSE JOY! It doesn’t matter what the circumstances are, God has a plan and I can choose to find joy in hard times. These are all temporary and insignificant things anyway. It’s not like what other people are facing in this world today.

It talked about how we cannot decide to be happy, because happiness is an emotion. But joy, it comes from deep down and it’s a decision. We can choose to be joyful even when everything is falling apart around us. I want to choose joy in my life. I am naturally a very pessimistic person and it’s hard for me to see the bright side of things. I truly want to live in hope and in peace that God will take care of me and that He will direct my paths no matter what. I think this starts with praise. So everyday, each morning I’m going to write one thing I’m thankful for and praise God for it.