have more fun

so I’m consolidating!

of work to do, and I am so slow. Took me all day to write medical history for OT. Still are household chores to do, and sleep to get. I want ot finish major tasks, exercise like I have all the time in the world, sleep similarly, and THEN work…..

I’m in San Francisco again. The hotel is amazing, and I’m on the 13th floor, overlooking the city. The bed is turned down, with chocolates, and there are flowers in my room. I have had a fabulous dinner with my national level coworkers, after a long day’s work, and we drank and ate and laughed until we nearly fell out of our chairs. One of my best friends is here, and it was so good to see him again. Thank God for platonic friendships.

I worked so hard to do this consulting trip, really a full week of work, late until midnight every night. It is worth it, for the friendships alone. These are the people I live with really, who know my mind, who write with me, who remind me of the gifts
God gave me. It is so amazing to use these gifts toward the greater good—to know that the work I do will influence the direction of science for many years alone.

I wish I had time to go out and walk Chinatown, to shop a bit (thought I really don’t have the money now), or listen to jazz. But it is a short trip, a small break to refresh my soul and remember why I do this.

And while I’m here I’ve begun to tell people I am willing to consider moving now—and why—and there is interest. It will take so long to move this along, but it will happen. It is riding the crest of change.

with colleagues/friends I love, at a great Greek restaurant, and it’s San Fransisco this time, and it’s actually sunny. Yum!

Rats, rats, rats…............!

You know, the problem is that I don’t know what is fun anymore. The insides of me feel pretty squished by struggles that went on too long, and maybe used up too much of me. What do I do if I can’t figure out what I want to do? I’ve always been so driven, and now I don’t even know what I want to do!

THis week I went to a disability rights meeting I really wanted to go to, and enjoyed the movie they showed. Very empowering….

I also rode, worked out 2x each, and bought some desk furnature. I wanted to go to a concert, but today was a bad day. I did also start a book…..