I have learned to be completely vulnerable… but went to the extreme with it and allowed myself to be putty in people’s hands. Now that I’ve discovered how to stay vulnerable and not be so afraid of doing so, I need to work on the other end of the spectrum more to balance things out, to guard my heart as God tells us to: establish more BOUNDARIES so that I don’t allow others to have ALL ACCESS to who I am. There are parts of me that should be off limits to all (or most) people and only shared between me and my Father in heaven. This bible verse says it all:
Do not give dogs what is sacred; do not throw your pearls to pigs. If you do, they may trample them under their feet, and then turn and tear you to pieces.
Matthew 7:6
Though it’s important to learn to open up and be more vulnerable with other human beings (since God did make us relational beings), it’s MOST important that I focus on staying vulnerable with GOD with all areas of my life. I know He would never tears parts of me to shreds but will only make me better as I expose the fragile, broken, and dark parts of myself to His light. I am a sinful and imperfect human being – just as we all are – and God is the only One who will allow me to come before Him, just as I am, completely broken and open, in all cases.
