Heal

I am healing so much. God is my restoration, Redeemer, stability, Counselor.

I have healed so much! It’s amazing how much clearer you can see things when you’re not constantly drowning in depression.

I have healed so much since dating David. I have thanked God so many times for bringing him into my life. Even though I believe in waiting until marriage until allowing sexual acts to enter the picture, I did end up doing just about everything with him except actually having sexual intercourse. I’m not saying that what I did was right… but I feel like maybe God permitted it in this instance as a healing mechanism for me.

God knows my heart and knows the emotional issues I’ve struggled with. Just as well, David has struggled with physical issues in other ways, so I really feel like God healed both of us in exactly the ways we needed to be healed… and that could have only occured in the ways it needed to through the sexual feelings and the impression of sensuality and touch.

For a very long time I’ve felt like it wasn’t possible for me to be with a man intimately – physically. I didn’t feel attractive to the opposite sex… even though I always have been. I don’t know – satan has just fed me these lies continuously all through my youth up until college… and finally, after receiving my first kiss at the age of 23, last November, and feeling the physical touch of a man… I truly feel like this void has been filled, healed, and renewed. I’ve been healed from feeling unlovable in so many ways – emotionally, psychologically, and physically.

Thank You Lord, You are so very amazing.

God is healing me in so many ways.. inside AND out. You are amazing Lord! He has used this wonderful man in my life (presently not, but hopefully again – we’re taking a break) to heal many wounds inside of me. I am so thankful.

What can I say besides… I am healing.