never felt this bad in life before !! Hate my job, having huge fights with my partner – thinking are we meant to be together, my partners job is a nightmare – problems all the time, victimization etc etc etc …. don’t have energy, don’t do the things I am interested in mainly because I guess I am in a partnership, we have a toddler & we are just so busy all the time…I don’t know how others get things done ??? I don’t feel confident in my skills nor do I have proper uni qualifications – deferred from law degree, deferred from Occupational Therapy degree, deferred from natural medicine degree ….deferred, deferred, deferred !!! Mainly because I have had, not now which is a blessing, an eating disorder for so long. This has effected me enormously in ALL areas of my life, right from my career to relationships & friendships !! I am trying to feel happy in life but am not !! My partner also just got a speeding fine so this is a damper on things as well & he didn’t get a pay rise due to getting a written warning from his team leader whom is ‘harrassing’ him. He is taking it to fair work etc but it is taking it’s toll on our relationship & our studies etc etc …. I don’t know quite what to do anymore ? Angels please help !
shirley higgins has written 14 entries about this goal
well, it was Father’s Day yesterday & although my dad didn’t want visitors, we did visit …. all is ok, but today for some reason I feel flat & very down ? Not sure if it is tiredness, confusion, stress, lack of sleep in the past 15 months (although this is improving now) so ???? .....
I think writing down everything I felt down about helped to ‘disperse’ it & for me to come up with things to combat the things that are making me feel down…
I came across an excellent web site for making healthy & fun toddler foods, & these I would eat myself ! I felt inspired…also, decided not to get into any more debt by following my partners advice not to take on a new kitchen at the moment or any new furniture until we save more….very wise.
And, I have been thinking about career options too…still alot to work on though !
I feel down at the moment …. I think I will write down/brain storm all the things that I think are making me feel down…
- job (need to change career path or study &/or both)
- finding the time to do the goals I write down
- money, wish to save more, about to buy a car which will use up all of our savings …
- keep putting off gym & yoga (but finding the energy & time ??)
- my love life feels stagnant with my fiance’
- need to focus on more creative interests
- I don’t read hardly anymore
- I don’t cook hardly anymore (well I or my partner cook the same foods all the time apart from some different recipes every now & then … )
- I don’t feel same passion for natural medicine & alternative therapies as I once did ??? not sure why
- my passion seems to have subsided ? not sure why
- need ‘friends’ I can go out with that I feel I connect to … how ?
how to overcome all of the above ??? ....
I feel very sad at the moment, almost has come over me in this last week or so…job uncertainty, relationship uncertainty, not sleeping with my baby still waking 2x a night (almost now sleeping through with this new sleep training I am doing with him :)), ummmmmm not sure what to do career wise at 40 STILL !!! (been like this for soooooo long…..), ummmmmm, in debt again (need to pay credit cards off asap), buying a new car which will be another expense, & feel sad because I don’t have a girlfriend/friend that I can go shopping or coffee with etc. I was on fb & the friends I have there are very caring but somehow I just don’t connect ?? .... I know friends come along when you really need them, but I do feel very alone in life right now & down….:( I also feel exhausted & haven’t had the time to read about spirituality or do creative things (apart from my baby’s first birthday prep) nor do the things I enjoy …. yoga, bushwalking, meditation, gardening – planting flowers etc, cooking foods I like …. & the list goes on…finding the time & energy ? I know once my baby starts sleeping completely through the night I will have more energy & be able to go to gym, start studies, perhaps have time to focus on my interests …. meet a nice friend :)
Little down at the moment although had a nice evening with my mum helping me to set up the baby clothes wardrobe…tired I think & a bit anxious not knowing when I will start to go into labour ????
Birthday this saturday & feel a bit down. Have been invited to my mum & dads for a bbq which will be nice. I just don’t feel like eating & think this is putting me off celebrations etc because most celebrations are around food & eating….????
Need sleep AGAIN. Up all night peeing & tired !!!! :( Getting sore back a little a small amounts of period like pains for a very short period of time but I think my body/uterus is preparing for the real contractions which could be any week now.
Little down about having some stressy arguments with my partner. Most likely stress. And he got a speeding fine $200 !!!! Which isn’t good timing at the moment financially !!!! Praying he gets work asap…Universe & Angels & any beings please help us with this situation. Thankyou
I think with the approaching days to having the baby I am feeling a bit of anxiety but also feeling a tad stressed due to the need to prepare everything before hand BUT, I feel disorganized & wishing to organize but not having the energy to do so – I think this is getting me down.
hmmm ~ so much to do. I have made a list so I will go through it step by step. Maybe I will feel more positive after I clean, organize more, have the Birth Plan done & pay more of our debts …. mmmmm Universe please help us in the best way you can. Thanks
amazing what sleep can do ! I often find that when I am well rested I cope better with everything & any challenges etc & have way more energy for the day & don’t get down as much…
YAY for sleep & feeling happier !
Still a bit sad…I think I cover up alot of feelings lately but hope to go talk to the naturopath soon & clear some of my issues & get some more flower essences. I think I need to focus on my long term goals as well which I am trying to & to work on my career/work…having been thinking lately what I would really like to do.
Yes tired, but also down as well, more so than yesterday.
Had a bit of thing with my partner, felt disturbed at work & couldn’t sleep.
I pray that things work out for my highest good…Angels please help in the best way possible. Thankyou