have a boyfriend

Earlier this summer I started dating this guy and at first things were fine, but that didn’t last very long. After a while he would say that he’ll call me but he wouldn’t call. He did that three times in a row. When I called him one day, he knew that I was a little upset about him saying he’d call and then not calling, so he said he would make it up to me by taking me to a movie that night. I got ready and everything that night…and he stood me up. He didn’t call and he never came. Thats when I knew it was over for sure.

What’s really been bothering me since then is why. He never told me why he stopped seeing me. It really hurts to not know and it makes me nervous because if I did something wrong then I don’t want to do it again with the next guy that comes along…whenever the hell that may be.

He was the first guy I ever dated, but we were never boyfriend/girlfriend so this goal is still not done.

:(

all my friends have boyfriends except for me. it really sucks being around them sometimes. when can i have one of my own? how much longer do i have to wait? i’m already 20 years old. :(

is a complete asshole. He used me so I would help him get a good grade in class. He lied about having a girlfriend (he said he didn’t, but he did). I think he did that because he knew I liked him and he wanted me to like him even more so I’d help him more. Oh, and also, he “lost” my number twice and said he’d hang out with me but didn’t.

He got the good grade in class, by the way…all because of me. I hope he as a great life..

It sucks because I knew he was using me for the grade but I let him because I thought I could make him get to know me and like me. But no. I’ll never have a boyfriend because all guys I meet just use me for something else and nobody sees me as anything more.

I should just pretend to not know anything in any class and that way people wont use me like that. (He’s not the only one that did that to me).

and i wish he was my boyfriend…

he’s hot, and extremely nice, and he talks to me. i’m so glad he talks to me. usually i’m always the first one to say “hi” to a guy. but he sees me sitting and studying for a test and he comes and sits next to me to study with me. i like talking to him. it just seems to come natural. the only thing is, he’s really hot and i keep thinking he’s too hot for me. like he could get any girl he wants, why would he want me? my brother told me that once i put my crush above me then i set myself up for failure and i’ll never get him. he’s probably right. so i’m trying to think positively. its just hard sometimes since i never had a boyfriend and in the past when guys found out i liked them then they just gave me the “friend” thing. i hope that this guy is different. i hope he’ll see me as more than just a friend.