forgive my mother

let me be completely honest here… she’ll always do things to drive me batty.

but lately, i’ve been letting go of the anger. i don’t know if this a step forward or just temporary. but i’m starting to grasp the realization of why she is the way she is. and i’m starting focus on loving her, rather being so angry with her.

i still do have anger towards her, but i also do love her greatly.

last night, i picked up the phone and called her… just to talk. and tell her how my evening went at the corporate function (as there was line dancing and she is big on line dancing).

it was nice.

just as things become better between us, she does something to upset me again.

i’m so livid that i can’t even begin to write what just happened. all i know is at this moment… i loathe her.

thus far, i have not written much in this area. reason being, i’ve only got negative things to say in regards to my relationship with my mother.

i know, though, that if i want to improve the quality of my life, including the quality of my relationship with others, i need to forgive my parents. especially my mother.

and learn to accept her for who she is.