get over my shyness.

Whether I’ve been successful in this will be put to the test tomorrow! I’m starting a new job! For the last four years I’ve worked with the same people and for the first 2 years I hardly spoke, they thought me weird :( But something happened (it might have something to do with getting drunk at the xmas party!)and I started speaking and the people weren’t that scary anymore, I enjoyed going to work and they in the end they couldn’t shut me up!
The new job came around quickly, so there hasn’t been time to think about it but I’m going to miss my team, I feel comfortable with them, they are like extended family. I just hope I can feel as comfortable with this new team as I do now so that I can be myself. I know that I wouldn’t have tried for this job 2 years ago because of a lack of confidence and being just too scared, I just hope its me thats changed and its not the people around me that make the difference.

I realise after making the conscious effort not to look at the floor that I actually (surprisingly) don’t look toward my feet that often, but I do however look directly ahead and refuse to make eye contact with anyone passing. So at around lunch time I changed tact and decided to make eye contact with work colleagues (not all, just the ones I knew, I’m not that bold!). But I kind of got shot down, maybe after two years of saying virtually nothing to people and then they get an “alright” and a smile would be slightly unnerving. I need to think about my next step.

The thing is that I constantly look down to the floor or when that’s not possible I play with my watch, anything to avoid eye contact with anyone else. I think this might be a slight problem to overcome my shyness. So tomorrow I’m not going to look toward the floor when walking around in work (one step at a time!) and see how that works.