find a career that I love

I’m going to try to become a teacher.
This is a big thing for me, although I have said this to myself and to the people around me on many occasion, I don’t think I have been in the frame of mind to take the next step.
(the frame of mind may have something to do that I can’t begin this until next september, but hey)
And please note that I say try, because I’ve always had it in my head that once I’ve decided on something I can’t change my mind, especially with something as big as a career. I am slowly becoming aware that this is not true and if I fail miserably its not the end of the world and I can try something else, but at least I would have tried.

I don’t know whether its because I’m in a better frame of mind but my job doesn’t suck so much at the moment. :) . I think it might have something to do with moving floors and everyone is more chatty, including speaking to me! So if I just attempt to speak more often perhaps I won’t feel the need to rush into another job just for the sake of getting out of this one.

I’m in a horrible job. Well I say at the moment, its been over two years now, but they’ve sucked me in with good holidays and pension, the job doesn’t require any thought or worry and the pay is decent enough for the work asked. However I don’t get along with the people, I go for days without speaking to anyone while there a people all around me, and the money is not enough to set myself up. I’m thinking of becoming a teacher but the thought of standing in front of a room full of kids and speaking for an hour scares me s**tless. I want to open a bookshop but then the thought of no money (security) fills me with dread.