be more charismatic

This isn’t working out well. I think the more I try the more I fail. Also, the more I think about the more I feel I am pretty happy with who I am. I’m just not happy with where I am. If I can change that situation I will see things a whole lot differently. I know this. It’s weird but I’ve never felt like I belong here. Time for another ‘thing to do’...

This seems to be the main complaint from the people around. A lot of people feel that I don’t appear to be approachable. It usually takes me a long time to warm up to people. On top of that my interests usually differ drastically from most of the people that I am in contact with in real life.
I think one of my first goals is to be able to smile more but not make it look too fake. Honestly I don’t understand how people can walk around just smiling all day. It just takes so much effort of my part. I’m a bit antisocial by nature so anytime I have worked on my interpersonal skills in the past it just blew up in my face later on. I have social anxiety so when I am around a lot of people for extended periods of time I get a sort of cabin fever feeling. I’m good in small groups though so I try to play off of my strengths. I’m usually working on improving my intellect and artistic skills but I now think that I need to work on my soft skills for me. Before I was working on it because of what other people wanted me to be but now I’m ready to do it for the right reason so I should stand a better chance now.