You can reinvent yourself if you want to.
If you are stuck in a life that doesn’t feel like you, a job you don’t like, a career, a relationship, a city or country, you can change it. You have the power to change these things. Sometimes it takes a catalyst – divorce, lay off, death, accident – and it can be a great service to you to be laid off or left if you were living a life that no longer fit you (it can be hard to see it that way). But it doesn’t have to take this kind of change. Your circumstances are to a very large degree your choices.
In no way am I saying that this is an easy thing to do. It is absolutely not easy to reinvent yourself, change jobs, move away. It is not easy to make yourself take the risk, face unknowns. It can feel like jumping off a ship into the cold water. Sure, the ship makes you sea sick and you really don’t want to go to the next port, but the water looks cold. But you can if you want to or need to and you can choose how you get off the ship, too.
There are a million ways to live your life and I think that the way you choose should suit you as best as you can find.
I am grateful for art. I am grateful for the encouragement of my friend, my family and 43t’ers on my drawing. I am grateful that there is so much amazing work to discover and appreciate. I am grateful for the variety of forms and the different ways to appreciate and feel art. I am grateful for documentaries about art and for books on technique. I am grateful to have time and resources to draw and explore.
I am not turning 40; I am 43 (which is of course a most auspicious number). I am most honored to have been invited to participate in this goal. Thank you!
If you are human, pain is unavoidable. Some will have more, some will have less. But all will have some pain.
The last 3 days, I have had a migraine. On a scale of 1-10 with 1 being no pain and 10 being a most unmanly weeping wish for death, it ranged between a 4 and a 7 with the 7 coming Friday night from 11 pm to 3 am.
I do not like migraines, or any pain for that matter, but I feel deep gratitude that things are not worse. I have it very good in so many ways. Even from a migraine point of view, there are those that have them with a frequency and severity that I simply cannot imagine living with. From every other point of view, my life is very very good.
I am grateful for the comforts, the family, the friends, the pleasures and the successes of my days and life. I will try to remember that wishing for a life without pain is a futile wish. I have a good life and pain can be a good reminder of that fact.