become more spiritual

So I’m here at work, and my hyper-sensitive intuition immediately begins to pick up on rank and utter stupidity, huge egos, negativity, and total chaos. I am taken aback at how my life, my emotions, my surroundings totally TRANSFORM the minute I walk into someone else’s place of work. (I describe it this way, because my job, ISN’T my own business.)
The truth is, whenever you take yourself out of your own controlled and safe environment, wherever your “safe” environment is, you’ll have to contend with all sorts of elements- unpredictable, sometimes pleasant, sometimes ugly.
In my case, my home is my place of refuge. It’s my escape to a certain degree. It’s my sanctuary. When I leave home, I’m immediately exposed to the nut jobs and “colorful” personalities out here in Harlem. I become meshed in with tense people with major attitude and issues.
And when I arrive at work, I am left to experience firsthand the HUGE array of often annoying personalities. Firsthand!!!!!!
So here I am feeling disconnected with my inner self, desperately trying to mend that bond I thought I had been making with my spirit. Today will be a challenge, but I won’t let “them” take away my progress. If anything, “they” are helping me in a way. If it wasn’t for the ridiculousness I’m feeling here at the job, I wouldn’t be writing here on 43 things.

Okay, so I’m really not doing well with this goal. I think the rigors of life and generally being busy and conquering other goals has gotten in the way.
That said, I’m starting to realize that you don’t have to set aside time for spirituality, which is what I’ve mistakenly done.

Spirituality, I’m learning, can be incorporated in every day life!
A sense of spirituality can be obtained by helping those in need of advice or friendship, calling friends and telling them I’m thinking of them, appreciating and protecting the beauty of this planet- from the morning dew on grass to the drama of a starlit and moonlit night to the breathing colors of fall foliage… these are all things that can contribute to spirituality.

Okay, I’m realizing that living in such a hectic city makes it REALLY challenging for me to have any inner peace and quiet.
My mind is constantly racing, I’m edgy half the time and always guarded. I need silence and stillness, yet I’ll still pursue this goal. I need to for my own sanity.

I’m not religious, wasn’t brought up in a church or anything, but I feel I need to be I touch with God. Simply put.