Meditate every morning

ok, so why meditate ? to relax, become more centered, I expect. And become more able to stop procrastinating the care with myself. I came back from Brazil with a weird sense of being null and I really believe it’s just my fault: I began a cycle of putting others ahead of my own interests and needs and the result – I feel bad and lacking energy for coming back to my self-esteem, self- support, self communication, self in the best sense of the word. It might be very common for people to do this: feeling down. It is too common for me to feel down and to relate to feeling behind because… what do I expect ? I should have written down this thought when I got back from therapy two weeks ago. There was something wrong with putting other people ahead, and there was a thought behind it… can I redeiscover it ???
Maybe, through meditating, my mind would be able to listen to these thoughts!
I still don’t believe. What is missing here ? Maybe nothing, maybe everything ! I want to build something, and I feel it will start from my self assessment…

I’m changing the verb here to meditate because walk is included in physical activities.
By the way, meditate should have always been here. I did that sometimes and the goal is really be regular. It can make me drowsy in the morning, though, sitting on a chair. So I’m sitting on the floor or mat from now on and hopefully I’ll stick with that habit as well.