Not yell at my husband when I need him to listen...

... keep the same tone even when I want to be heard…
I tend to increase the tone of my voice when I believe that I need to make sure the person whom I am speaking to can hear me and get my point. Of course, it has not worked, never. I probably registered a false impression that it happened at some time because I have been repeating this strategy… What a waste of time and effort !
It makes me feel I have forgotten what I learned during the years by talking to different people. I must say it happens with family members more often, but sometimes in social situations, which makes it embarassing and potentially harmful. To me, more than to people who can hear and forget about it. To me, who is trying to be heard and understood – and I usually end up with the feeling of being intelligible although other people were there to listen ! Isn’t that ironic ? This is such a childish behavior. Or, immature. I understand I would be better without it, and my husband is an important part of the desire to change. Or, accomplish !