Lose 4 sizes on the Writing Diet

26 pounds now!! Can’t believe it! I’m totally proud, though.

I bought the iPod and it is AWESOME!! I’m going to work harder now and my next ‘reward’ for my loss will be smaller and the goal will be more achievable. I’ve learned my lesson

I didn’t lose the weight. I lost one pound, and I am very disappointed. I didn’t weigh myself the whole time, apparently a bad idea, because I had no idea how poorly I was doing.

On the other hand (and I’m not trying to make excuses) I work out a lot, so I think I’ve gained a lot of muscle (which weighs MORE than fat). I’m pretty sure this is a factor, not only because I exercise, but because yesterday, I lost yet ANOTHER notch on my belt (that makes 2, but still exciting) and I’m wearing a t-shirt right now that I haven’t worn in at least 6 months, and it’s loose on me.

So, that being said (and excuses being laid down) I’m still going to get my iPod. It just really won’t be as sweet, because I’m still disappointed in myself. But I need that iPod man, I actually dread walking the dog cuz I have no music to listen to!

So I hope no one now will look down on me, I’m going to work super hard and I’ll come up with a new goal, and hopefully meet that goal.

...to set up a goal.

On July 7, 2008, I will have been doing this diet thing for 2 months. If on July 7th, I have lost 25 pounds (I’m around 19 today), I’m gonna buy myself a new iPod.

My old one is about 3 years old and barely works. The hold button sticks often, so I can’t change it. The back button (to go back a song) doesn’t work at all, and the forward button is going out, too. Plus it’s a nano, only two gigs. Modern ones are up to 8 now, but I know it’ll change next month.

Anyway, I take my iPod on my daily walks and it’s the best ‘reward’ I can think of for myself, so I’m gonna do it.

So now I gotta work hard to maintain and lose weight hardxcore for a few days, but it’s the boost I need.

Wish me luck, kids!

18 pounds.

I feel kind of guilty, though. I follow a lot of the books advice, but I stopped writing. I think ‘ll end up starting again, I’m just having a hard time getting anything done (all the more reason, I know), but everything’s so overwhelming, I feel like I’m barely hanging in there.

I still follow all the rules I set up for myself and I’m still slowly losing weight, I just can’t do the writing right now and considering it’s called the writing diet, I feel guilty. Oh well, it’s my own commitment, it’s not like I’m letting other people down, AND I’m still losing weight. Still I know better and I know I need to follow through better.

13 pounds

It’s been almost a month. I definitely should have lost more, but 9 pounds ain’t bad!! I’m proud and I’m dying to keep it up. Even if it kills me.

I may have only lost 9 pounds in 3 and 1/2 weeks, but it’s healthy, it’s not healthy to lose weight fast, and I’ve been going about it in a healthy way. I’m way proud and didn’t I already mention I lost a notch on my belt? If I did then apologies, it’s only been one notch total, if not, freakin’ sweet, eh??

You know when they advertise diets as you don’t have to change your life style? That’s stupid. If it weren’t for something in your life style, you wouldn’t be overweight. I heard a commercial yesterday advertising this great aspect of their product. That’s stupid, this life style of not watching what you eat, not exercising, and being quite frankly probably very unhappy is what got you into this mess. Change is good. Embrace it.

I WANT to change my life style and I want to want the changes. I want to want to work out everyday. I want to want to not eat greasy fast food. I want to want to eat veggies, even the ones I don’t particularly care for. I’m getting there, but I’m excited for the day when I can say I want to eat veggies, exercise vigorously everyday, and avoid fast food. Because that will be a life style change and I will be happy, and proud.

So far so good. I’ve been following the plan for the most part. The best part about this thing is nobody tells me specifically what to eat or how much of it. I just have to write it down and own up to it so I know what I’m doing, and it’s in my hands to know what’s wrong and make a difference. I have to trust myself to make better choices on my own. I don’t trust myself just yet, but my body, mind, and I are working on it.

the writing diet. It’s interesting, you write instead of hide even more emotions in exercise and counting calories. For anyone who’s interested. It’s The Writing Diet, Write Yourself to Right-Size by Julia Cameron, author of The Artist’s Way. Anyway, so far it’s interesting. It requires a lot of time, effort, and flexibility because you’re in for a lot of life changes. So far it’s only been three days. I officially started May 7, 2008. So far I have changed my mornings, afternoons, and fridge. I’m getting ready to go grocery shopping, I’m going to pick up some fruits and veggies and some healthier stuff than what I’ve been almost unconsciously eating for quite a while.

This is obviously a long term goal, but I think with a little support, a lot of effort, and having to write about this so the world can see, I can do it. It’s been like I was afraid to admit I am overweight. HEY WORLD! I’m FAT! It’s not like people didn’t know. Now I just have to realize and change it. I can do this. I really hope. Any words of encouragement would be awesome. Really. I’ll try to keep this goal really updated.