stop procrastinating

1. Weekend journal writing (check)
2. NaNo (check)
3. Finish getting Scorpio birthday stuff together (check)
4. NaNo (check)
5. Make an effort to leave the house _{massive fail}
6. NaNo (check)
7. Not being a Drama monkey (check PLUS!)
8. NaNo (check)
9. Meditate (check)
10. NaNo _{...too sleepy…}

1. finding a second job
2. following up on Gavy’s advice about writing oppertunities
3. balancing my checkbook (because I know it’s going to be bad)

So I currently have a whole MESS of creative projects I need or want to work on. They’re all piling up in my brain, so this is a dump-list so that I don’t forget any. After I get my 43t goals list cleaned up, I would like to add more of these as their own goals, so I can give them the attention they deserve.

• The Novel (aka—“Lauren”)
• Apple Tree (aka—“that other novel”)
• sketches for Apple Tree
• a graphic novel version of Jellyfish Hunt
• collaboration with Stef (won’t happen until December, anyway. But need to start formulating ideas)
• collaboration chapbook with Miss Blank
• individual poetry chapbook
• NaNo 2008 (for. the. win.)
• transcription of KK’s NaNo stories
• website design for CC
• website design for author page
• painting for Miss Blank’s x-mas present
• collage prints

Today I woke up at 9am. And then I went back to bed. And now it’s 4pm, and I literally Have Not Left Bed All Day.

Welcome to doing more with less. Time, that is. And back to work tomorrow.

Today is rotten.

• clean out some more catalyst spam
• work on halloween cards, get all the international ones completed first so that they have plenty of time to get out
• plan menu for next week
• plan schedule for next week
• fold some cranes
• get a good full night’s sleep

• before work—go for a twenty minute run
• before work—straighten hair
• before work—make coffee, spill some coffee on wreck-journal
• during work—email SarSar about weekend plans
• during work—put letters/bills in the mail
• during work—coordinate with K. & E. about workshop
• after work—call phone company and tell them not to disrupt internet service. Jerks.
• after work—workshop with K&E?

1. Go to the grocery store for picnic supplies
2. Weekend journal assignment
3. Cut watermelon into chunks
4. Pack picnic gear (remember art supplies!)
5. PREVENT IT FROM RAINING USING ONLY THE POWER OF MY MIND(And Mama’s crossed fingers and toes! Thanks Mama!)
6. Go to the picnic
7. Work on catalyst emails
8. Rewrite resume
9. Prepare generic flier & cover letter for tutoring jobs
10. Work on the long novel (finish chapter 5 by end of the weekend)
11. Make attributes poster
12. Tjanting reading
13. Dreamweaver study session

(Check back at 10pm EST to see how I’ve done!)

1. Go to borders at lunch for a copy of Skinned
2. Go to Big D’s for a new broom & toliet brush
3. Get eyebrows waxed
4. Yoga/stretching (my back and hips are in so much pain right now)
5. Clean dishes out of sink
6. General housecleaning & tidy
7. Sweep fallen paint mess (the sky is falling, the sky is falling!)
8. Decide on a menu for Saturday’s picnic (anyone got any really good picnic recipes to share for approx. 10-20 people?)
9. Balance checkbook
10. Pay bills
11. Work on catalyst emails (3,000 done, 12,000 to go…)
12. Cook dinner

Is there such a thing as “the track”? And was I ever, really, actually on it, or am I just “eternally derailed”?

Regardless, I have gotten very little done this week that I either wanted or needed to accomplish. The show taping Tuesday night, although great fun, did totally change my schedule from my original plan for the week. And even last night—the reading was planned, and I had a good time, but the dinner afterwards, although wonderful, meant that I didn’t get home until I was already exhausted.

But the other thing that has distracted me greatly this week is 43things, and the wonderful people. So I think I’m going to have to stop being online in the evening, and just sneak on from work, or after 10pm at night. I’ll try to keep up with everyone. But trying to keep up with my life is turning out to be a bit of a struggle, and sadly, that part comes first.

I’ve been in a really poor mood the last couple of days, which makes motivation and energy to do things that I want to do, or that are good for me, very difficult. And there certainly are a lot of them. And even the easiest and most fun seem like monumenteous struggles to me at the moment.

This suuuuuuuuucks.

• There’s been so many things I’ve put off for so long, it’s hard to even go back to them
• It’s been far too long since I’ve used 43t to be productive, rather than just socialize
• Days slip away from me because my attention is so divided over the many things I want/need to do

The answer of course, is to do something about all of this. To make plans and stick with them, to decide on a course of action, and to use the resources I have (including 43t) to actually make it happen, rather than distracting me. To get back on track and do the things I want & need to do, knowing that I will feel better afterwards as a result.

Today’s to-do list (not to be ignored!):

1. Write 3 pages in my journal
2. Sort laundry
3. Go to laundromat and wash clothes
4. Do the dishes that are turning sentient in my sink
5. Put away materials from Tuesday’s spellwork
6. Move the one bookshelf in the study and see if it makes the room look better
7. Balance checkbook
8. Pay bills
9. Finish letter to Kristin
10. Buy holiday tickets home
11. Fill out jury-duty survey and hope they don’t call me
12. Hang towel hook, ‘70s trees, Pitt posters
13. Sunday night yoga
14. Reflect on how to better choose adventures
15. Decide what an “awesomely different life” looks like
16. Write up 43t entries for things I have already done/progress that has been made that I haven’t yet gotten around to recording
17. Change my subscription address for my magazines and Netflix