fall in love and be loved back

wow.. 3 months and he breaks up with me bcuz me and my friends had some of our guy friends over. we were drinking, but nothing even happened. talk about being insecure and jumping to way too many conclusions. the sad thing is that i miss him alot.. :/ everything reminds me of him and i absolutely hate being single. but apparently hes made up his mind.

about two years ago i met this really amazing guy through a friend of mine; it was instant chemistry and we’ve dated off and on ever since. it was undeniable that there was something there, but it was just always the wrong timing.. we werent mature enough.. we met other people.. we basically always let something pull us apart. we’ve recently started dating again about two months ago, and it couldnt be going any better. ive never opened up and been as comfortable with a guy as i am with him. we have fun together, but he can also be serious when i need a shoulder to cry on. hes smart, sweet, funny, treats me right. the only problem is that this is my first serious relationship. i guess im just afraid that i’ll mess up and scare the best thing thats happened to me away. or even worse.. open up to him completely and just end up getting hurt in the end. but i guess thats the chance you have to take with love? as cheesy as that sounds..