I have battled with this disease for what now seems like forever. Since age 13 (when I started) until now, 8 years later at age 21 the cycle of anorexia, food control and manipulation has taken over my life. I am currently at one of my highest weights, 121 pounds. I feel fat, bloated, ugly and uncomfortable.
Today I met with a very well known counselor who has worked with eating disorder patients from all over. She said that as horrible as it sounds there is something about this disease that keeps us coming back for more. We use this disease to cover up our feelings about things we don’t feel like dealing with.
She has set me up with an eating plan..the idea is to take my focus OFF OF FOOD. I can’t fathom the day when my life is not ruled by food…for now i can only trust what she has planned…I guess i have nothing else to lose.
Anyway…here is what is supposed to be eaten regularly:
Breakfast: Light and Fit Yogurt and Pita Bread
Snack: Fruit
Lunch: Salad with protein and Fruit
Snack: SF jello, SF pudding, Fruit
Dinner: Vegetable, Protein, Fruit
Dessert: ?
il have to double check this list, because i am writing it from memory as the actual sheet is in the car…
I am feeling hopeful.
