Stop being so hard on myself

M: “You know better”

C: “I should”

M: “You’re more understanding than I am”

Yes. I should. I need to. I will.

BIG step today. Normally I would’ve beat myself up hard over something like this but you know, I didn’t. I had my second guesses and I got some much needed reassurance but I’m confident that I made the right decision and my ability to not do something that I worked very hard is okay with me. Definitely a step in the right direction!

I’m getting better. I’m not there yet, but I’m getting better. I’m willing to take more things in stride and I think I realize that there is always going to be a certain level of self criticism that I’m always going to have, it’s having it under control to where I can let myself off the hook sometimes while still holding myself accountable when it really counts. There’s a fine line and I don’t think I have quite found it yet.

I took a big step today. I did something today that would have been, in months past, very devastating. I feel like I took it in stride today. Although I am in a sense, saddened and somewhat upset, I feel like my mindset is different than it would have been previously. That makes me feel good. Even if I did dent my car a little. It’s just the exterior and no functionality has been sacrificed. So be it. I’m okay so it’s okay.

I am human. I make mistakes. Why is that so hard to accept?