get over the love of my life

We were togheter for 3 years, but i know him since 8 years ago and i love him since the fist moment. He lost his job last year and he havent been abble to get another and he said i put too mane pressure on him. That wasnt my intention, i just wanted to encourage him a little cuz he was so depressed. And the we start having problems cuz he never had a cent and we were so restricted in the outs and everything. I didnt care that actually, i just want (still) to see him ok and succesfull. I told him that but he said that he dont belive me.
Then he broke up with me and we still talk. For me is hard, i wish sometimes not to talk to him, but if i dont i feel like a big hole is opening in my chest and i have trouble breathing, it is horrible. So i keep talking to him. He said he still loves me, but he dont wanna be with me cuz i “dont love him”. He doesnt matter what i said. Then he blames me for eveything bad. He said that i hurt him on purpose and that when he did was non intentional.
It sound horrible, i know…. and it sounds like i shoudnt love him anymore. But i cant help it. I love him more than anything. I try with all my heart and soul not to think about him and do anything else. But now im having problems to focus on my things. He is in my mind all of the time, even if i do try really hard not to.
My friends live so far away and i cant go out that much. Im trying to read, study… wherever. But i dont know what to do.
Can someone give me some advice plz???. Thanks so much.