live life as I would dream to

I just decided that life takes over and I can’t be focused with this goal and the longer it stays on my list the staler it feels

Should I keep this goal or bin it???
What is it I am hoping for? My views change every time I am here and according to my circumstances.
I want goals i can open up and go this is what I’m focusing on this month. I always bypass this one, it just seems too complexed.
Last year I wanted a wedding venue and move back south this year I want to move to Australia, that’s crazy if I can’t work out what the dream actually is!
Any advice anyone?

Where am I/

Well still here living close to my children & grandchildren. My younger daughter moved back in with me not long after I took on the house.
This hasn’t worked out fantastic as she is quite nomadic and does not stay often. What I do know is that Ive done the right thing moving back here.

I am able to look after my mum who is now very ill, spend time with my grandchildren when I can. I can call upon friends, visit and go out and I no longer feel as alone as I have done.
However. my huuby and I were seperated for 3 months and I seem to enjoy this time on my own. I could take life as I pleased. We did the natural thing, he followed and moved down and things have swung back into the old habit of me staying at home on my own for 80% of the time, I have grown bored with life. We barely have a relationship, when he is here he barely talks. It seems he just needs a substitute mother and I definitely never signed up for that.

So my mindset is if I cant be happy as I am then life has to change and I need to move forward and make the difference to myself.

Ive decided to return back to the south or england. My reason is because I want to be closer to my grandchildren I feel I am missing out on so much.
My youngest daughter and I have grown apart I shouldn’t have allowed this to happen.
I dont think I like who I have turned out to be by trying to live the dream maybe I should define what I really want from life.

Reflecting on what I have achieved this year.

Well started 3 businesses and supported others with theirs.

Moved yet again but definitely not the home of my dreams.

Scrapped my car and tried to bus it into work but I became for ill each time I travelled on a bus so had to resort to returning to using a car and much happier now.

I feel that I am moving backwards rather than forwards but hoping this year will give us a chance to get ahead now!

I’m happier where I am now than Ive ever been and although things can take some time sometimes they are worth waiting for.Only inspires me to do more!

I was totally shocked today when my laid back husband suddenly piped up his forth coming dreams…I didnt know whether to take him seriously or not!
Finally after absorbing I couldnt quite work out whether he was saying these things to live the dream I want to or whether this was how he saw it his way…until he piped up, ‘Its about time I grew up!’ then I knew…..at last…every girls dream!

I’d like to buy a 4×4 vehicle. I’ve driven one on loan to me before and really liked it. Where I live now you definitly need something like this, particularly in the bad weather.
The only gripe I have with it is it’s expensive to run and not the most economically friendly.
I’m thinking a freelander might be nice.

I’d like to be able to take a holiday every year, not just a normal package deal,do something different and really experience different parts of the world.

I have just experienced solace in a beautiful place today. The view was gorgeous hills, fresh air, sea, sky, wildlife, horses and I had a cat purring around at my feet.
I would so love to have a house like this where you can walk out onto the veranda everyday and soak it all in.
Dream…dream…dream.