live deliberately

So I did this today. I saw a problem, and I tried to fix it best I could. I don’t think I did such a bad job either.

Tough, took some courage but got these in the end!

Today was not such a great day…it’s only 11:00am too! I am a leader of a team and I lost my cool today during a race. I feel really bad about it. Really, really bad.

I let my hand and mood be driven by others. This has to stop as I really like rowing and it would be a shame if I hade to change or stop now. I guess i’ll give myself a few days then I’ll think about how to best go about fixing this problem. Bit too miffed right now.

Tomorrow!

Generally this is going really well. When it came down to it, it is actually pretty easy to get rid of bad influences in my life (and no, I’m not talking alcohol and late nights). It was at times very painful to let a the big ones go…especially when some of the big ones decided that they should be let go but not without putting in one final negative word. So to speak.

You don’t get everything.

Now those influences are gone and I feel so much better for it. Thinking things like: don’t tread on me! (Massive kudos to West Wing for that…and many other things). It all helps. It’s strange and very much the cliche that now I feel like I’m almost ready to begin again.

Whitout further ado – here’s to a deliberate start.

I float too often. Just drift where ever. Then wonder why I’m suddenly in a very bad position. Well not this year! Oh no…this year I’m going on the record and I’m doing it deliberately.

I’m looking before I leap and, in what could only be an unprecedented move, stand down from the edge if I can’t justify the squeeze for the juice.

This year, I’m going to play it just a bit smarter (not safer).