be more romantic

What a great goal! I’ve not only become more romantic with my lovers but I now live a more romantic life. I’ve kissed in the rain, I cry when I see great beauty, I chase after things I know I shouldn’t, I feel fear and hope and compassion and lust and agony. I feel. I love looking at my life like this!!

w00t!

Something new (again). He’s lovely. Once again I’m all filled with hope that this one will get better. I think it will. I know it will!

nothing borrowed, nothing blue.

We will see how this one goes. He’s funny. I will give him that.

I just don’t know. I think I need to work through a few other goals before this oune is ever going to work. So for now (I’m going to keep this one on my list) I give up.

I found all the letters from AB today. I thought I had thrown them away after we broke up. I only let myself read one. It was odd to read his gentle voice again – especially after hearing all the harsh words I now know it is capable of.

Although I guess it’s not actively romantic I put them back in their bundle tied with silk ribbon and carefully placed them back in their box. It’s lovely to have a momento of more romantic times.

messy messy messy.
tomorrow will be a better day. I hope.

I failed. We broke up. I guess I’m just crap at being a couple. I think I got a bit better at being romantic and all but there is still a good way to go before I can tick this one off the list.

I’m not giving up. I’ll just try differently next time.

Fluctuat nex mergitur!!

I bought a punnet of strawberries for him today to say thanks for the coconuts. I’m not sure if this counts as romantic, but it must be a step in the right direction.

As I sit here procrastinating/reading papers I realise that my bf did something really sweet for me today but I was too caught up in being stressed to notice preoperly and say thanks.

Next time I will stop and smell the coconuts for my botany experiment!

perhaps I should go out more…I’m writing more romantic lyrics these days so that’s a start. But it’s hard to be more romantic when you’re single!