live my life on my own terms, not trying to live up to the expectations of others

“The only worth I felt was when I was an acceptable addition to people’s lives,” has really had me thinking! Is that what I think? Is that why I have a hard time putting other people’s expectations in their rightful place? It’s exhausting, plus not right, worrying about other people’s expectations! I have worth! Regardless of what other people expect of me! I have expectations, and those should be my number 1! And, I would probably feel the worth I have more, if I met my own expectations! Meeting my own expectations, I would feel good about myself, because I would be being true to myself!

relative, which makes me sad..I pray for him and I have sent cards in the mail. My Mom calls me early in the morning, and tells me that he is very sick and will probably be in a coma soon, and if I want to see him, I better get up there. After I hang up with her…What to do?! My mind is whirling…I haven’t seen this relative in years. It’s a 2 hour trip! I have family obligations! I have a lot of stress at work! What should I do?!

My Mom is known for overreacting! She also like to look good! She would look good, her kids coming up to see the relative! The relative is on her side. I felt manipulated by her! (It’s a well-known feeling!)

I decided not to go! If I went, it would be because of her expectations, and I don’t want her expectations controlling me! I don’t think it’s my responsibility to go! I do care…I pray and I have sent cards, and I feel that is where I can matter!

I told my husband that I decided not to go, and that I don’t care what anyone thinks of me, and he told me, “You’re 50 years old, it’s about time!” SO TRUE!

I have wasted so many years on other people’s expectations, when I have expectations of my own! It’s time for MY expectations!