be a better Christian

Its like I am helping God write the book of judgement on my life. I havent been doing any good deeds. I need to honestly concentrate on being a good christian because I can die anytime. Im not having sex or anything but I am just lying and doing other sinful things. I am going to try and occupy my time with my weight loss journey and stop doing irrelevant things that will not help improve my life.

I am working on this goal even though I live 2 different lives. I lie and deceive people but deep down I do care about people and love people. I love to help people and show them the right things to do even though I am not a good example. Tonight I deleted all the horny guys who I talk to on yahoo messenger who I met on the internet and then I uninstalled yahoo messenger. After that I listened to some christian songs on youtube. Everytime I start listening to christian songs and singing I notice that I feel overwhelmed with joy. I cant stop smilng while I am singing and I start to think about Gods love for me.

The changes that I have made since my last post…I have been reading the bible, praying for 2 mornings out of this week and listening to gospel music nearly everyday. I have a long way to go before I can tick this goal of but I know I will get there eventually.