Today is a sad anniversary. My mother passed away on this day several years ago. As time has gone on I’ve had a moments or regret when I realized what a jerk I was, for years. There have been moments of enlightenment, when what she did and why became apparent suddenly or gradually. She gave me so many intellectual gifts. Mostly I just stayed wound up in my own emotional needs and was thoughtless of her needs. Or else I worried about her emotional needs and was unable to convey any sense of concern or nurture.
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My grandkids have been calling me this week with a video phone app called “Tango”. Its really fun. The one year old actually called me back when her mom wasn’t looking. She kisses the phone and carries it around. The best image was when she was sitting on her rocking horse and had it in her hand, so I got this perspective of being a baby. I got a stuffed squirrel for her for Easter and I was playing with it on the phone with her. Then I mailed it to her with a note. My daughter made a photo collage of her opening the USPS small flat rate box containing a small squirrel with a note, and then hugging it. Toy rescue. Very cute.
I got my 10 year old grandson a Samsung tablet for his birthday and he and the other kids video conferenced me 3 times this week. I’m getting really use to seeing the ceiling of their house, up his nose, and the bottom of his brothers bunk bed. Its just amazing home much more is communicated with the video calls though.
One thing I’ve noticed is that people like to watch themselves make weird faces into the video screen. At first it was strange for me to see myself. I look old and tired, because I am. Its just not fun to look at yourself. Even my daughters make faces like that, not just the kids. Its a two way mirror thing. Very odd.
Its so good to hear from them all. I miss them.
As usual, I’m not with my kids or grandkids on Christmas. This really saddens me. Also, I can’t compensate by spending lots of money on them because I never have any extra.
Yesterday I mostly just moped around and played Words-with-Friends with people I don’t really know. I was determined to wait out the kids to see who called first. Nobody did. Called my daughter and she was attempting to park at the mall but she didn’t call back later. She and I have been posting grumpy cat photos on each others FB walls to uncelebrate this year, since we can’t be together.
Mostly on Christmas eve, I’ve always done the last minute wrapping, shopping, sewing. Always cooked or traveled or somehow didn’t quite make it to the festivities, so to speak. When they were little, I’d be up until 3am finishing up some project that I thought would delight them, wet paint and all. Not so much though.
Along about midnight, I noticed a sullen post on her page. I was trying to comment back “Merry Christmas” but a like link to an “ugly christmas sweater” page popped up. All of the sudden I knew what I had to do.
So for the next hour, I found the ugliest christmas sweaters that I could find online, and posted the links to my kids and their SO’s. They got virtual expensive horrible sweaters from me this year. They looked at the prices and posted back that I better be kidding.
I sort of wasn’t. There is always next year.
So I’ve been making these photo jar wedding centerpieces of family pictures for the tables. I sort of suck at this stuff. Its really trashy but I just keep going. I have enough stuff for about 30 jars, family photos, and all sorts of miscellaneous leftover crap. I only needed 8.
I wanted them to be highly symbolic. Also, each one required some sort of collage strategy that I have never tried. They sort of look like elementary school dioramas. Yet I push on.
My daughter said, “remember mom, sometimes less is more”. I just have all these voices in my head telling me to keep going. But luckily all of the stuff won’t fit in the jars.
Tomorrow I will finish them. Modge podge is drying on a little golden book of photos of my daughters fiance as a little baby and a young kid riding horses. I did the 4th step of some lace hearts that I made for the great grandparents wedding photos.
Tomorrow I will go to the photocopy place and get some transparent transfers for the inside of some jars.
I also have sewing to finish.
Found these cute vintage labels online. Printed them then modgepodged them onto some cans I’ve been hoarding. The modge podge made them look really cool. They shall be filled with roses. Also scored and found my cake knife and a tray my Aunt gave me as a wedding gift. Those will be useful.
Washed all the assorted fabrics and doilies. Got some linen table cloths for 50 cents but they are yellowed. Debating whether to dye them or just go with it.
Lots of mason jars, candles, some cut glass candy dishes, brick-a-brack, horse shoes, and I splurged and ordered a box of vintage salt and pepper shakers from ebay. I even found some vintage handkerchiefs, a couple of mens and a few womens.
Now to pack it up and ship it.
My daughter is getting married in Hawaii in September. I’ve been collecting up all the gazillion rustic wedding ideas on Pinterest and staying up all night trying to figure out how to make beautiful tables with about $0 in funds. I have a little more than that but hey, we want good food and drinks.
Any ideas will be appreciated.
I really love talking to the kids on skype. We tried to google video chat but we couldn’t get the camera working right. It makes me so much happier. Miss those guys.
My daughter who is in nursing school just found out that she’s maxxed out on student loan programs. She only has 3 semesters left. She’s ready to throw in the towel and totally overwhelmed. I can’t cosign for her because I have to much debt. Does anyone have any strategies they could share with me?
She has worked really hard. She’s a single mom with 3 kids and needs to graduate. Plus she’s a super smart person and getting almost straight A’s. It just seems like there should be funding somewhere.
My daughter is in a competition at University of Hawaii Manoa in a class for environmental entrepenuers. They only have a few hours left to win $1700. Please rate her videos 5. She’s about 30 votes behind the banana leaf guys.
Vote for any of these 3 videos from her teams.
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Moth Mating Disruption – http://www.ctahr.hawaii.edu/dnn/competition/Video13MobileMatingDisruptionforDBM.aspx
I visited my daughter last week and watched my new little grandaughter for the week while she finished off the last of her job. She had to work for one week after maternity leave to qualify for it. Corporate monsters. This is a baby that nurses and had not taken a bottle and a mommy that had not left the baby at all in 12 weeks. I love babies and I nursed and did childcare for many years so I was uniquely qualified to do the task but I learned something.
Caring for babies is for the young.
I was really tired by the end of the week and my back was worn out. It worked out though and by the second day I had figured out all the baby happy methods required for keeping my sweet little inquisitive grandbaby distracted. Those include; carrying, looking at the pictures on the fridge, stories, mat time, swing, new toys, puppets, walk around the house, fall asleep on gramas chest, music toy on bouncy chair. I even tricked her into taking a couple of small top off growly tummy bottles.
I taught her her how to blow rosebuds. We worked on it all week and she never did it for me. I blew close to her face and let her feel my mouth and the air. I put her little hand there so she’d understand what was going on. We worked on it a little every day while her mom was at work but I didn’t tell. The day after I left she started doing it and her mom videotaped it and posted it to FB. Ha HA!
At the end of the week I did a cousins baby photo shoot. Its hard to go wrong with babies and toys except if they are grouchy. We were very lucky and all three of them stayed happy for about 30 minutes. They are all born within a month and are second cousins. We picked out something we thought they could wear for years, jeans and white tshirts, so we can create a timeline for them.
Its always a little odd for me to be around this generation of my daughters cousins. They don’t know me at all. I was married to my ex when they were all born. There are a bunch of them too because its a huge family. I know them and their parents but they don’t know me, just tales of me I suppose. I always wonder what they think now that I’m around a little more. Life does go on.
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