be the happiest person I know every day

No school! The power is out at their school so life doesn’t get much better than that.

Just read a really interesting goal from TracyYonder that was “find out how forgiveness feels so I can recognize it when it happens…” it occurs to me that I have to put that into practice with love in my life a little more. I practice happiness so much each day but not love so much. Awareness is key here.

You can’t be happy if you are thinking negatively about others or overreacting to situations. Sometimes I have to just take a deep breath and remember that I want to be loving and peaceful.

Was at a breathwprks gathering last night and the instructor read lesson 101 from The Course in Miracles which sort of says that our purpose in life is to be happy. Whew at least I’m getting something right

A couple of the children I regularly play with at my part time job came in today and wanted me to play with them. My mom once said to me that there is no greater treasure than to be loved by a child. When they come and find you and grab your hand, or run up to you and say hello, or ask you to come home and play with them, you know you are doing the right thing. Also, when you can make a baby laugh out loud. And its nice to hear parents say thank you too. Not necessary, but nice.

I was having breakfast at McD this morning and listening to an elderly man and a nearby elderly woman flirt with each other. Both were there for the coffee outing. He was reading the paper. She was teasing him about reading the paper. They were so cute I even thought they might be married and playing some silly game. She was treating him like a naggy wife. He was saying he’s looking for a new wife, someone to drive around to doctors appointments and wait for. They just were making me laugh.
As I left, an elderly man told me that I looked really happy and I told him about my goal to be happy.
He asked me to join him for coffee, but I was leaving to go to work and I said no. He looked so sad. My heart is broken. I should have stayed. In just an instant I lost an opportunity to connect with potentially a very neat person. I felt like such a jerk. I’ll always be haunted by that look. I feel very sad.

I’m really not loving the facebook look and feel. I want my twitter to be a twitter and my facebook to be not twitter. But my kids let me in on their facebooks and I found out that one was friends with my best friend from college! So now I’m happy again. Found a long lost friend and reconnected. Facebook has been vindicated. But darn, first they want to oops, own our content, then they want to steal twitter. What the heck is next?

Redid my task list on the whiteboard in my office and I drew some little flowers in the corner. co-worker liked it. Dry erase pens are a real challenge to write or draw with.

Walked to the store for my bus pass and some groceries this evening. Just felt together for the first time in a long time. Stronger, wiser, healthier than I have in a while. Nothing earthshattering, just OK.

The toddlers make me smile so much that my face hurts. I’m getting better at making the babies smile at me. Parents wear them in those front packs and I reaally want to tickle their little kicking feet, but I don’t. Its really the best when they laugh.