lose 50 pounds

so evidently three months ago i was at 191. now i’m at 185. six pounds in three months?? sheesh, at this rate i won’t get to my goal until i’m an old lady! i guess losing six is better than gaining six, but maybe i should rethink this.

also, i recently had an epiphany … i remember back when i only weighed 140 lbs and you know what?? even back then i hated my body and thought i was fat. so it’s not really about the number, is it???

last week: 192
this week: 191

i have no idea what a pound means (did i drink less water today??) but heck, i’ll take it!! :)

last week: 192
this week: 192

well, at least i haven’t gained anything! i just started going to the gym again last week. i need to start managing the meals better though. sigh …

binged out on bread last night. i wasn’t even hungry! but it was delicious bread alone peasant bread, and i couldn’t help myself. well, okay, i could help myself, but alas, i didn’t.

what a sh*it head i am!! ugh.

but i was at bed bath and beyond this weekend. i have never owned a scale, but i am thinking of buying one. i tried a couple out, and it seems like over the summer i have lost 10lbs. woo hoo!! i did notice that some things fit a little better, although not amazingly better. so i am on my way!! only 40 measly pounds to go….

so hopefully it’s the start of a good habit! the interview suit is only a size and half smaller, so totally do-able. i mean, it ain’t like i’m trying to relive the memories of that hot red velvet dress of years ago (and like six sizes smaller!) i try to be realistic here.

in the give up pile! interview suit is 5 years old. and many pounds ago! but it would be a start. and then maybe my little black dress? that’s for dreamers!