I am still interested in doing… I think for now, I am going to give up on it. It’s not a goal that I’m actively working on and it’s not something I intend to work on. It’s a pipe dream. I’m not going to give it any energy because it’s become something that matters less to me over the years.
The magazine industry is very cut throat and commercial. My writing is anything but. I like the fact that I am a creative writer. I write to experiment, to paint and to feel.
I have friends who went and trained at big magazines like Hello! and Bliss as interns and are now working for smaller magazines and toiling their way up. They have drive and ambition and take chances- quit jobs on a whim and trade stories to other companies because that’s the way the wind blows. I’m not like that and I don’t want to be like that.
I always dreamed of being one of those agony aunts or lifestyle – girl about town- style writers when I was 12. Who knows, maybe one day an opportunity will fall from the sky into my lap like an apple. Hey, it happens. But for now… I’m content teaching and pottering about in the nooks and crannies of my own life, my own head and taking each career move as it comes. At the moment that’s getting onto a PGCE course. The writing career is on the backburner so to speak because I’m not brave enough to step out and give it my all but also because I’ve changed as a person!
