keep track of my period

well I know my period is here but i don’t remember what day it came sometime last week.

I am in so much pain. I have idea what is going on. My lower back feels like it is going to break.

I can feel it. A rumbaly shaking stripped feeling in my uterus. Oh sweet red raspberry tea. you hold my my pain and own it.

For a long time I was so disconnected with my body that weeks before my period, I was just totally mean and crazy and everybody would ask me if I was going to start my period and I would flip out and tell everyone to shut the hell up. My used to be boyfriend always still even now knows when I’m going to start my period before I do. I am in the process of getting an anotomical heart tattooed on my back and everytime I would go in I would be on my period, which if you have had a tattoo you know it is really painful and everything is more painful when you are on your period. So I told my tattoo artist my promblem and he laughed at me and said well when are you not on your period I said I don’t know, I just turn into a bitch and then one day I go to the bathroom and it’s just like the first time I got my period. Shocked! and excited but for diffeent reasons. I was excited because I was a woman, now I am excited that I am woman who is not preganant. Then the disappointment. Then it was what the hell is this shit, what do I do with it. Eww this is gross. Now it more like, oh man that’s why I wrote my used to be boyfriend mean e-mails and told my best friend she sucks. Then I come out of the bathroom with my head hung low and apolegetic. I feel you on the need to keep track of the woman making fluid just so you keep track of your emotions. Well long story short now I’m the customer who he had to track my periods for me because I didn’t. He counted the days out infront of me in his appontment book. I felt like an idiot. At least we can laugh about it now.