save my marriage

love remains…

we had a big problem last week… i have manic depression and am really bad with money. for the second time in the last year i have blown my credit card. after the last time, husband told me that he would leave me if it happened again. you must be able to imagine the fears that i had when i had to go and tell him i had done it again. instead, he was calm and sat with me so we could figure it out. since this problem we seem to be stronger than ever. it is really special, the way we feel towards one another now.

hopefully, this is the beginning of a new ending for us.

i am not sure it is going to be save-able. we are fucked. i don’t know what to do anymore… like, what are you meant to fucking say when he says to you ‘this is worth nothing to me.’

what are you meant to be able to do? i need to fucking know because all i feel like i have the energy to do is crawl to bed and cry until i either run out of tears or sleep. how do you cope with that?

this is coming along slowly. we have started relationship counselling, and i imagine that is the first step. we have been going for three weeks now and we are REALLY seeing the changes. it is quite special to be able to find what it is we lost… even if it is only in wee little pieces.