well the dance school i auditioned for said that they didnt want me and that I needed to lean up. Well, instead of actually trying harder with my diet I instead binged on icecream, biscuits,pizza, chocolate, mcdonalds, cake, chinese pork buns, chocolate chillers and whatever food I could find. The result: well 1. some one said I looked different and said I could interpret that statement however I wanted( which meant that I looked fat) 2. I got huge stomach aches and felt depressed 3. PIMPLES and dehydrated skin 4. Bloating and weird uncomfortable noises coming from my stomach 5. The foods left a bad aftertaste in my mouth 6. I felt embarrassed about telling people how much i ate or what I ate
I dont want to suffer from all those things anymore, never again and even though dieting is sometimes a practice of self control I think its easier to let go of food binges by understanding all the terrible consequences..I want to be extremely proud of my body like I was when I was younger..I want to weigh 51-53kg so that guys can lift me in the air without a problem.
I think I will cut out most meats except fish and eat only 2 meals and 1 snack day. I will also cut on fats etc. and eat brown rice or bread instead of white..
I will also continue dancing and yoga and run every morning for mental clarity..Hopefully that will work! I need to lose 10kg.
