find out who i am

...by accident today. Since the doctor re-re-re-adjusted my medications, I had been feeling empty. I was not that much suicidal as before but I had no motivation to do anything else neither – my cats were hungry enough to chew on anything in my apartment and I didn’t feel hungry at all…so I took one pill from my old doctor. It helped me focus in the past but I guess it’s not a good combination with my current medications. I was high for a little bit and I got something done – took out the trash, emptied the dishwasher & reloaded it, took a shower, realized I was straving, made lunch/supper, fed the cats, did some research on the net, did landuary, chatted with an old friend online, realized I have $0 for rent and $5 for food & bills, my ex’s ex is in court today (so my ex is with her ex today & out of reach), found the HK government website very confusing, got the wrong size of paper for printing out government forms, realized my reading comprehension (Traditional Chinese) is reversed back to middle school level.

lost….