become less of a jealous person

i hate being a jealous person. i am just used to it because i have never been enough for someone. there was always someone better than me, and i dont like competition because the other one always wins.

it’s just getting in the way of my boyfriend’s past with girls and how earlier in the relationship he would tell them they are hot and cute, and it just bugged me so much because i feel im not enough for him and i’ll never be good enough.