lose weight

so, anyways – i have diverticulitis thanks to my mom’s side of the family and i’ve been having really painful attacks of it for about 3 weeks now because i’ve just been eating really horrible lately. i’m finally sick of the pain and i’m not ready to go through surgery to fix it, so i did some internet surfing and almost every website about diverticulis suggest a liquid diet for severe attacks. i would have done it sooner, but honestly i have a fear of fasting and i like food ALOT. but the fear of a colonoscopy is worse so on may 28th, i decided to liquid diet. i’m drinking juice and water and black coffee and eating sugar free popsicles. the first day was hard. i was super hungry and felt shaky and weak. i didn’t think i could do it for another day, but the next morning, my body felt so good, i decided to stick with it. usually my body aches in the morning, but now i wake up with no pain and a smile on my face – which is extremely unusual for me as i am not a morning person. my attitude is more positive – i just feel better all over. i know it’s just water weight, but seeing the scale go from 154 pounds to 146 pounds in just a matter of a few days has relit my fire for my desire to lose weight. i know i can’t stay on the liquid diet forever, but when my symptoms are gone, and i go back to solid foods, i know this time i can avoid unhealthy foods and never overeat again.

i dont understand why i can’t get the motivation to lose this damned weight. do i not want it enough? i don’t see how that could be the case since i’ve been ‘trying’ for so long. i hate this

for a while now, i’ve been feeling short of breath on a daily basis, and i don’t mean just when i’m active. it’s been getting worse lately so i went to my doctor today and she says she thinks i have adult onset asthma and to top things off, i seem to have a bad infection in my lower lungs. she put me on some antibiotics and an inhaler and told me to get plenty of rest and lots of fluids (juices, water, chicken broth..). i’ve read many articles by doctors that say juice fasting can aid in ridding your body of a respiratory infection and help the symptoms of asthma. so i thought about doing a liquid fast that would also includes broths, but i’m concerned about how it may affect my metabolism. it would be less calories than i normally take in i’m sure – quite a bit less in fact. i don’t plan on doing it long term, just a few days to allow my body to heal. that wouldn’t lower my metabolism rate, would it? i’m just having such a hard time breathing that eating makes me even more miserable

lose 20 pounds in 90 days. that’s 0.2222 pounds a day, which is 1.61 pounds a week. very doable.

so 3 months ago i was 150. last week i was 138.5 and today i’m 137.5. i’m very happy about that especially since lately i’ve been feeling fatter. i guess you can’t always trust the way you’re feeling. my clothes are fitting better and the scale is slowly creeping down. life is good.

well, i haven’t posted in like 3 months. i read the entrie i last posted and it said i had gone from 150 to 144. i’m now 138. so, it’s coming off slowly but surely. i honestly wish there was a safe quick fix. i’ve been so disponded lately. about everything. i don’t know what’s going on.

so i guess i haven’t posted in a couple of weeks. it’s because i started a new job dealing with mortgages and since my area of expertise is credit cards, i’ve had alot to learn. it’s getting easier though. so i was 150 at the time of my last post and i’m at 144 now – so yay! 34 more pounds to go!

well, for a long time i’ve been trying to kick the caffeine habit. i’m not 100% sure that it leads to weight gain, but i’ve always resented the fact that i depended on it to get me moving in the morning. i never could make it past one day without my coffee and diet cokes. but tuesday, my doctor told me i had to avoid caffeine, so i haven’t had any since. i had a headache up until today, and i’d be lying if i said i don’t miss the rush and the taste. but mostly i’m proud that i was able to quit something that had been a long time daily habit

i don’t normally advise fasting as a weight loss method. it’s usually counterproductive and you end up gaining back any weight you lost as soon as you start eating again. but because of a health issue, i’m being forced to liquid fast to give my large intestine a break. i hate fasting, i can’t stand the hunger pangs. i don’t even know how long i have to do it. my doc said to do it until the pain subsides. but even after that, my diet has to be different than what i’m used to – no spicy foods, no greasy foods, no seeds or berries : (, no black pepper, no iceberg lettuce, no tomatoes, no skin from fruit or potatoes, no celery, no popcorn. ugh, i might as well just lay down and die – no not really, i’ll get used to it. and who knows, maybe this is the answer to my prayers – i’ll finally lose this weight.

ok, so i’m off to the doc to tell her i’m sick, and she’ll tell me i’m depressed, so i’ll never actually get better or get rid of the pain. but mainly i’m dreading that scale and the hag medical assistant who always puts the little weight thing at least 20 pounds more than what i weigh and then works down to my actual weight. it’s like ‘gee thanks’