stop fighting loneliness with a bottle of wine

Update here
Tonight instead of wine I had icetea. I also kept busy taking pictures with my camera. I know tomorrow I will be happy I did this for my head will be clear.

I was searching in google for some place to start, a place to find motivation to make more needed changes. I have been battleing with drinking too much wine for about 2 years. I know I am doing better at the battle for I am not drinking a bottle of wine everday like I use to. I still am drinking a bottle 2 or 3 times a week. That still is too much, and I know. BUT It has become my friend. on those loney night, they become fun and relaxing when I can sit on the back steps and enjoy the wine. But now I need to fight the real battle…why am I lonely and what am I going to do about it. I think this site may be very helpful and where to go with my steps now.