stop talking to him

So beginning Monday I started a week’s cleansing of him…

It’s now Thursday and I haven’t said a word, there’s been no communication at all.

I’m happy!

I’ve gotta last until Monday then my reward is the new James Bond DVD…can’t wait!! :)

So there’s this band that I love and go to see obsessively and fanatically…when you love a band like I do, you get to know the guys not just in the band but the crew too. Well I’ve always had a thing for the band’s head of security/the lead singer’s bodyguard.

For the 12 or so times seeing the band, we’d kind of innocently flirted and stuff, but I was like ‘this is Security **’ [as he is known amongst the fans] – I have no chance. He was just a fantasy.

Until one day I end up in his hotel room, and so begins months and months of emailing everyday and becoming totally infatuated with him [we live 5000 miles and an ocean apart but hey…I wasn’t bothered.]

Anyway, long story short – I find out he is living with someone back in America, and she has found out about us and it’s all very very messy. What an asshole, right?

I know, I KNOW that we can never be together…it isn’t possible. But, I still can’t stop talking to him. He’s the first guy I ever fell in love with and I’m finding it hard to get over him. Every time I say ‘I’m never talking to you again’, about 2 days later I email him apologizing and groveling…it’s pathetic.

SO THIS IS MY GOAL – to stop talking to him. Because if I don’t, things will only get worse (for me) and I’ll just seem more and more pathetic and desperate in his eyes.

Wish me luck…