chill out

this weekend was the epitomy of failure in every single of one my 43things, but i geuss the end result is CHILLTHEFUCKOUT.

so.

i have wormed my way into a slightly shitty situation. i hate feeling helpless.

1. i hate when i hang up on somebody and they dont call back.
2. i hate when i say, “__ pissed me off” and they say “you’re wrong.”
3. i hate when people are cruel in fighting.
4. i hate going in circles
5. i hate my crying complex, where nobody (and i mean nobody) gets sees me cry (sober). im completely rediculous about it. ill walk calmly into a room, close the door, sit on the bed, cry hysterically for 10 minutes, get up, wipe my cheeks, and go back to whatever else i was doing. that is how much i have structured my emotions to deal with abrasive people who dont give a shit.

sometimes i just flip out over stupid stuff and i feel like i cant control it. scary stuff.