feel the fear and do it anyway

feeling relief these days because i am doing all the things that i am afraid of like confronting friends that keep telling me to buy their products, saying no to the duty that doesn’t belong to me, say hi and introduce myself to the stranger i am interested to know in workplace. The more i do stuff the more I prove to myself that I was my own worst enermy not the situation.

said hi to security, got no response felt destroy but ibtold myself they were all attracted by another guy that injured his neck
so they didnt pay attention
got over the feling much more quickerly
usually it bother me the whole day

i think if you want to do the thing you have fear of. First, you got to eliminate any expectation, for example: “you r gonna handle it very well”,”you will not show any weak side”; second, don’t feel bad for being bad or weak, you have a strong desire to be strong but strong mind is from ur subconscious not your conscious, so just BE WEAK, BE SHY, BE UGLY, BE BAD, BE UNEDUCATED, then the fear will go away, all the fears come from expectations and fear always grow into a lot of different forms of worries, anxiety etc.
do it anyway, but don’t do it in “a way”!

the cashier lady talked to me and I just stood there without any word in my mind to return to her
it was rude but didn’t mean to be
i need to learn how to do casual talk
just say whatever without thinking too much

this lady I met from my workplace, keep calling me like once a day, I didn’t answer any of her call
She was trying to convince me to join amway and wanted me to attend the classes
I feel fear because I feel rude to ignore her calls, I don’t want to resent her. I am just being very nice to everyone that any chance I have to give anyone a hard time, I feel horrible. I guess I need to start focus on my own good.

feeling some fears because of getting new freelance job which is totally new to me and I am afraid that people will trick me and my inexperience performance will not able to get a good price for my job but I understand I need to grow from fresh new or bad experience. I think too far away and it is unnecessary
I called my cilent and talked to me. I try to pretend I am confident but I actually think it doesn’t matter since he didnt notice anything. And it was not as bad as I thought

asked my co-worker that I always am afraid of to clean up his mess
he defended little bit but he did clean up
this time my voice and body language is stronger and I was more sure of what I was telling him
he felt like he need to do it

Tried to talk to people in different stores today
felt hesitated but did it because my friend cc needed me to ask question for her
didn’t have complete eye contact or a relaxed strong voice. Self conscious
after all these felt like people are friendly and not they didn’t hate me
Felt like opening up little more and try to show little more personality
try to like myself more

I meet with my cilent
talked to him with limited confident
little weak thinking that he might not going to pay me on time and I will be too scared to ask for the pay
I think I don’t believe I can handle it well
it is a desire of having lot of confident

i was betrayed by my ex-boyfriend
he posted up my naked pic on a public website and all of my old friends saw it. I didn’t know how to face it cuz people keep coming up to me and attack me in a lot of ways. I disconnected all of my friends even tho some of them didn’t do anything bad to me, it doesn’t make me feel so better but worse
I think the best way is to face it
I just need courage to deal with it.