stop being fake

why i insist on being as fake as i am. on so many different levels. but it really hit me today that i need to change something. whenever i get into a fight with one of my friends, we both just start acting like it never happened; no talking it out..nothing like that. we just put on this act that everything is okay. it’s so fake. we’re all just pretending..and it gets us nowhere. i hate that i have other motives to be fake though..such as future plans or other things along those lines. so not only am i fake..but i’m using people. just wonderful.

called fake at least twice this week. and countless times before that. i don’t really understand why, but i’m just taking everyone’s word for it and coming to terms with the fact that i more than likely am a very fake person. i know i care too much about what others think about me, and i know i end up changing myself to make it so they’ll like me better or want to be friends with me. but i don’t know how to NOT care. i’ve always cared..and i think i probably always will.