lose the weight i need to lose and keep it off

so its been going pretty good for the past week. a few days ago i started getting a cold and yesterday i was feeling miserable (i was perhaps exaggerating a bit) so i went to buy myself some medicine so i would feel better. well while i was out i caved and bought some junk and ate it all at home. i noticed something pepsi is nasty!
i haven’t had pepsi in like 2 weeks and have only been drinking water and now i find pepsi way too sweet and as such a bitter taste to it. i also did something that made me proud of myself too, when i finished work (i work in a convenience store so I’m surrounded by the stuff all day) i almost did the same thing again, but put my foot down and put all the stuff back and said that i wasn’t going to lose all the hard work that i had already achieved!
so now I’m committing to more exercise (which makes me feel better about myself) so that i don’t succumb to the evil junk food again!

so I’ve tried and had many set backs but now i am changing my life for sure. i realize that its not a diet i need but a change of lifestyle. i cant wait to start seeing serious results. once i have my eating under complete control im going to move onto starting a workout regime

i guess im not motivated enough and as much as my mom wants to help her nagging me about it just makes me want to lose weight less. this sucks i know i have to lose it and i want to but not really. and when people tell me i need to i wanna hit them. what am i gunna do

ya this is hard but

k um i ve tries and failed many time hopefully this time will work.