Be myself

this is definitely something that even if i want it i won’t be able to set an specific date to achieve it. i wanted so bad to accomplish this goal by the end of this year. not so simple.
but the truth is that i just gotta find time to myself. stop wasting time thinking over and over and actually do stuff.

well, i can say i am almost me. i’ve been finding out in the past 15 months this amazing person, that has a lot of flaws, a lot of fears but still is a beautiful, brave and amazing person and i’m so proud to know her. i think after one or two overcame fears i can definitely say i am myself.

things that must be done in the next 30 days:

• face some more fears
• re-study my personality
• create my own style
• express my creativity more

i can really feel now that i’m getting there. i’m loving myself each day more and more and i’m starting to stand up for myself and finding out who i am, what i like and defend myself and my point of views. i’ve stopped trying to please everybody and be perfect.

some things to keep in mind for next month:

• face my fears
• stop pretending
• create my own style
• express my creativity

i have lots of goals and ideas and what keeps me away from them is my fear, which, of course is caused by my anxiety and panic syndrom. i can see i’m this close to be as confident as i can be in myself, but as long as i keep this fear, i can’t get there. so, i’m still gonna focus on psychology to face my unknow fears, yoga to control my mind and breathing, acting classes to release what is inside of me and, of course, lots of will power.

i’m almost there. i can feel.

updating this goal. well, i’m doing pretty good. i’m facing my traumas and fears from the past and i’m learning to deal a lot better with the present. i’m really caring a lot less about what other people think. of course that’s not something easy to get, it’s been only a month, i’ve still got a lot to do but i’m getting there. i’m a lot more confident today and i can really stand up for myself most of the time. i’m gonna keep facing my fears. here’s what i still have to keep in mind:

• face my fears
• be more confident
• stand up for myself

and i’ve being pursuing this for almost a year now and i can say i’ve made a lot of improvements. these are the things i must keep in mind to achieve it:

• be more confident
• face my fears
• stand up for myself
• stop caring about what other people think about me