stand up for myself

there’s still one thing that bothers me and i need to get rid of. this urge to meet people’s expectations other than mine. i think i’m in the right path but i still need to find what i truly believe and stand up for it. i mean, i really really reduced all the masks and pretending situations, but there are some left, some self-defend shields that doesn’t want to leave. They’re still on guard thinking that i’m in a war. but i know the reasons why they’re still there and i need to focus those things. focus! cause the year is ending.

well, finally, huh? i’ve been pushing myself into it for more than 12 months already. i’m really starting to put myself in first place and don’t mind about what other people may think. afterall i’m the one living my life, not them.

the key is to listen only to those who you think that really care about you and pay attention to those who really irritate you, because if it irritates you, it must be something that you deeply want to change too.

i think i’m finally getting there.

finding out what i really care, so i can be able to stand up for what i believe, no matter what people may think.

what keeps me away from that is that i’m not really doing everything i know i can be able to do. and that makes me not really proud of myself. there’s not much i can stand up for.

will power and achieve some of my goals here should be enough.

i think the key for this it’s been finding myself, my true self and what i really believe, what i really stand for and overcome the fear. why should i fear? i’m intelligent, i can take care of myself.

i can say i’m doing good. quite far though. first, i’ve got to find out what i really want and what’s really important to me. separate my values from those my parents taught me and from those i’ve sorta absorbed from society. respect myself, my choices, so i can have what to stand up for.

• find out which are my values and separate from those i was taught to
• respect my choices and myself

that the first step to stand up for myself and show more confidence is stop showing off my insecurity and self-criticism. cause i’m like that, i’m always pointing out my flaws and that opens a space for people to control me using my weaknesses.