by others that I seem older than I am. People much older than me, a decade or so older, a few years older than me, other teens that are around my age have even thought I’m older than I am. More mature than most my age, they say. I hold myself different from others my age, I’ve been told. People have asked me about my college in the past… When I was still a freshman or sophmore in highschool. I’ve always taken it as a copmliment and whatnot, but lately (about… 10 minutes ago), I’ve been thinking: I think I’m acting too old for my age. Too mature. “Young at heart”? Meh. Not really.
I’ve seperated myself from most other people at my highschool and have become, somewhat, a bit of a “loner” because I see the rest of them as idiots and immature. Getting into catty fights and gloating about the past drunken parties they attended and who’s dating who and whatnot. I’m not saying I need to do all that…
I just think I should be able to lose myself a bit more… let myself get out of control sometimes and just… kick back. Enjoy my youth while I’ve got it…and…whatnot.
Besides, as great-feeling as it is to be flirted with by older guys… When those mid-late-20s and early-30s guys start to flirt… well, that’s when it gets creepy and awkward. =shudder=
