find at least one thing each day that makes me happy

I just realized that I’ve been a member of this website for three wonderful years. I ♥ 43 things.

Also, I’ve been finding inspiration in the simplest things, such as sitting outside for just a few minutes each day and writing in my notebook as the breeze rushes by.

Thank God for class extensions for my Biology class over the Halloween weekend. Without this, I wouldn’t have finished anything.

Also, I’ve been diligently following up (or at least trying to) on several of my goals.

And, for the most part, I’ve been trying to live like I’m happy which, for me, leads to a little more happiness.

The few moments in life when I think to myself, “You will Do/Be great at this (Don’t give up).”

I’ve been keeping up with my moral-o-meter. Although I’ve had quite a few rocky moments, it looks like a wave… For the hopes of moving that wave a little bit higher up.

I’m coming to terms with the fact that I don’t need her to answer my letter anymore. I’ve lived without it my whole life. Nothing is missing from this.

Adding colorful pictures to my entries =)

Oh, and of course the pumpkin that I get to smash on “Pumpkin Chunkin Day” (Friday).

I must admit that today was a very low day for me, but I did manage to find a few things that made me happy:

I actually pushed myself to finish some homework that’s due soon.

I curled up under the covers to try and get a quick nap, but ideas kept popping into my head. This was the first time that I was able to set my pencil and notebook next to my bed and actually make good use of them.

I had a really bad night, but I was promised yesterday that the sun would come out today. I didn’t believe it, but just as I would getting out of my car, it shined at me before setting… I used to hate the sun, but it’s so calming and warm to me now.

I had a great time this weekend, and it’s the first weekend that I’ve felt well in so long.

I watched the deleted scenes from Mrs. Doubtfire and a few really “dumb” movies that were actually quite funny.

I went for a few walks through the leaves with my husband, we had our first anniversary, and we went to the Renaissance fair.

Autumn: I love autumn so much. The leaves are so pretty, and I loved the last few days when the sun came out and shined through the trees. I got to goof off by jumping on sidewalk cracks and crunchy leaves.

I’m in my second semester in college, and my last class of the day ends with creative writing. Mr H is absolutely off his rocker. He reminds me of Danny. They have the same coat, the same crazy Robin Williams’ impressions, the long, black, wavy hair and the gottee to match, and they both have a grim reaper. Mr H told us to talk to the grim reaper, to listen to what it is saying. I don’t know about anyone else in the class, but I heard it… ^_ Then again, I’m proned to being weird. But, I’m really looking forward to having class with him. He’s definitely the craziest teacher I’ve ever had. And I love that.

It seems that the last class of the day is always the best for me. My psychology teacher last semester was the sweetest person ever, and my 12th grade Speech teacher, my 10th and 11th grade English teachers, and so on.

I got a bike for Christmas, and I’ve been riding it to the park and back. It’s really nice because the trail leads right next to a flowing creek, which used to be really poluted. I saw it today and the water was higher than ever, most of the muck and litter cleared out. It was very beautiful.

My sister never learned how to be nice to people. She’s twenty and still lives at home. She shows her love through rude remarks. That’s just the way she is. And the other day, after getting into a fight, she finished making my Mac and cheese. Sure, it sounds stupid, but any small gesture for her is bigger than it seems.

I get to fly on a plane on Wednesday, and I’m really, oober excited. I can’t remember the last time I went on one. But not only do I get to fly on one. I get to go and see my husband on his base. I’ve never gone to it before, and I’m so happy that we get to spend our third New Years together!

So, I just got off the phone with my husband, and he has been hanging out with his buddies today. I asked if they were all having fun. He was waiting in the car, and he had been for two hours because his buddies were in the strip club, and he didn’t want to go in. That is soooo sweet and thoughtful.

And I got to see him for Christmas. We got into a huge fight over something that had been digging a hole inside myself for a while. I finally told him. And it’s such a relief that he can understand what’s going on. We’re so much closer now. I really really care about him, and now we can talk about everything.

I visited my ex’s grandmother who was in the hospital last Sunday. She was so happy that she started tearing up. It’s odd that even though my friend and I are no longer talking, his grandmother and I still love eachother very much.

I’ve just realized how blessed I am to have everything that I do have. I rarely take the time to appreciate things, but today I had one of those Wow moments when I stop and think to myself that I am So lucky to be here.

My old really good friend has joined the army and I am so happy for him. He’s changing and being challenged, and fighting to my country.

I’m actually trying to do something with my life and accomplish something. It’s challenging, but really fullfilling and nice!

I’m starting to appreciate the people whom I don’t like and look past my grudges and what not. There really are specific things about them that make them such beautiful people.

I bought some flowers yesterday to take to the graveyard. I think it will be nice to place them on the graves that haven’t been visited in a long time.

I went to the circus today with the children I used to babysit. I didn’t want to go with them, but I’m really glad that I did. They are so sweet and are growing up to be beautiful kids.

Last night was insane. I felt about every different emotion, but that’s good because once I went to bed, I knew that god was caring for me. I love knowing that he is there with me always and if the people whom I care about leave me, he will always be there no matter what! It’s amazing how lucky I am…how lucky everyone is

I know I’ve written this way too many times to count, but I am sooo greatful for my friends. They are so amazing, and I wouldn’t trade them for anything or anyone in the world. They are always there when I need them. I love them to death.

I’m really nervous that I’ve been speaking with Danny, but I’m really glad that we can…chill I guess. I can’t trust him. He knows it. Part of me thinks that something bad might happen, but the other part of me is so happy with the changes that he is trying to make with his life right now. But he still is in this process of change. I just have to see where it takes him. I’ve really been praying that he’ll be alright in the end. I just hope…and keep hoping. If things go wrong, I can turn to my friends above and god, but for now, I am so proud of the way Danny is changing. I pray that he will be a wonderful, great man in the end.

I hung out with my friends last night. We went to the park and hid eachother’s shoes (in the sand, in the tower, under the tire, in the bush) Then we played hide and seek and tag. Afterwards, we went to Alli’s house and roasted marshmallows that were shaped like Christmas trees and stars. Then we went to her woods and “looked for ghosts.” It was fun because we didn’t have flashlights and we kept running into things. My stomach was hurting really badly, and I kept getting big warm hugs. Yay. I like hugs. :D One of my friends had just gotten broken up with and we all helped cheer him up. I love cheering people up.

The possibility that my ex boyfriend might be getting the help he needs makes me really happy. But then again, the key word is ‘might.’

I got the job. It’s about as good as any high school job can be.

I have made a few new friends. They make me feel so special.

I’ve been trying a lot of new things lately. I’m beginning to welcome change rather than push it away. This is a DEFINITE improvement over the last few months.

I haven’t seen my ex’s family in a while and I’m okay with it.

The leaves outside are sooo gorgeous. I’ve been trying to take pictures of them at every opportunity, but I haven’t had too many. I’m going to make more..

I don’t have to go to school for the next week. This kind of bums me out at the same time, but I really need this time to catch up on everything else: Sleep, homework, etc.

My friends are so amazingly wonderful. I feel so blessed.

I think that my perspective on life is getting quite a bit better. I’m trying not to be so depressed. If something bad happens, my goal is to focus on the good because there are SO many precious things that I take for granted.