remember that nobody and nothing can destroy my happiness

and what about my tooth – it’s aching even though i went to dentist today and she filled it :((( It does destroy my happiness…

Today it was the day of several tests of the way other people and things influence my happiness. There were so many critics of me in such a little period of time with such huge intensity that I was just about to kick sb’s ass or break down.
Then I saw myself and the other people from the other perspective: these are their opinions, their thoughts, their problems, the things they were criticising me for were not ‘me’ in fact.
How refreshing.
So now I’m sure my happiness is safe and sound again.

ok, i do remember. now, i should apply it to life.

it’s important to remember not to make our mood dependent on other people’s attitude towards us
if somebody ignores you, is rude towards you it’s the problem of this person not yours. it’s not you who is to be sad because of that. these are the feelings of that person not you. you can only notice that this person has problem with his/herself and it has no influence on you. you must start perceiving yourself and behaving as free independent identity!

i feel totally sad today, and it’s partly because of the people, i’m disappointed by the behaviour of my friends who build walls without any reason and isolate themselves… it’s so sad.. i feel bad :(
i’d really like to make this goal real but it’s so hard!

If I think about the person I love and I know I’m trying to forget about him for such a long time, I’m getting less convinced in my ability to live without influence of other people on my mood… How can I be happy with being conscious that the one I love declared that he has another vision of life.. How can I be happy despite such thing? De Mello says it’s all in our minds…I’m feeling so ambivalent, on the one hand I’d like to ged rid of this feeling and be really happy and free, and it seems that I’m making progress..but on the other hand I feel that I’m still in love with someone who I can’t be with…I believe nothing can destroy my happiness, nothing but one person..at least at this very moment of my life.