stop biting my fingers

today i got a manicure for the FIRST time in SIX YEARS! i was always so embarassed to let the estheticians see them & realize what a bad habit i had. but in the last month they have been getting better so i decided to jump on the opportunity while it was there! & the manicuirst picked away all the rough skin, which drove me nuts so i couldn’t even watch lol but she did it the RIGHT way, so i have made a vow to myself to go every 2 weeks to get a manicure. ( its only 15 bucks! ) & let a PROFESSIONAL take care of my worries. HOPE it works!!! wish me luck! :)

ps – YOU ALL CAN DO IT.

even if you are a man, go get a manicure! it feels great!

i don’t know how it happened…
i just keep biting..

:( i was doing so well !!!

this is my “bad hand” lol the other one has 3 gooood cuticles… i bet if i was left handed it would be the other way around… ughhhh

at first i never thought writing about it would help because it’s all in my head but actually writing and TALKING about it helps a LOT..

i’ve also been wearing a thin glove on one hand when i’m just at home alone with my boyfriend, because he obviously knows my problem..

also my friend told me my fingers LOOK NICE!!

i thought she was crazy, but like uberpuma said

“What I have noticed is that they are turning fleshy again instead of inflamed, and I have also noticed that even if I run my knuckles across my lips in search of a stray piece of skin to rip and bite at, there is none there, and by the time I realize there is none, I have already noticed again how smooth they are, and it gives me encouragement to stop biting or searching.”

it’s the same, everytime i rub my fingers against my lips its smooth now & it makes me stay stronger..

even just using vaseline at night around the problem area is super moisturizing which helps the dry skin stop peeling…

also sitting on my hands when i don’t need them has been helping..

had a brief relapse on sunday night when i was meeting my boyfriends dad for the first time, but as the night went on i got stronger & more comfortable..

just need to keep rubbing and not picking.. putting lotion on rather than putting them in my mouth to chew..

lots of work & it keeps you on your toes thinking about it all the time but YOU CAN DO IT!!

i can do it!

i have to lol i dont wanna get married & have pictures with my beautiful ring on my gross fingers right!

in the last 17 hours, since i wrote that last post, i think i bit maybe like 10 times, i put bandaids on my pinky fingers because they seem to get it the worst the poor helpless things lol

wish me luck, im gonna try for an hour …its noon here, so 1pm here i come…

trying,
its sooo hard
i’ve honestly been trying to stop for years now with no luck at all

i cant even go a full hour without picking or biting off a hangnail or trying to “smooth out” the ripped skin..

its so stupid that i think biting them will make them look smoother, its the whole problem!!

but when i see a little scab forming i just wanna pick it off :(

thinking about counselling to figure out what the REAL problem is :(