stop smoking

I started smoking again at the vet ball at the end of last November :(

Nevermind, I’m giving up for lent, and then I’ll take it from there.

I haven’t had a single cigarette now for more than 6 weeks. That has to be the longest time I haven’t smoked since I was 15 even. I’m so proud of me, I should buy myself a present.

Okay, I admit I haven’t really been taking this too seriously lately.
Because I’m young, wrinkle free and quite healthy I don’t think too often about the consequences of smoking 20 odd cigarettes at the weekend, but it ends now.

I am going to tick this goal off when I haven’t smoked for 6 months, which shall be 6 months from this day

I have not smoked since the wee hours of Christmas Eve and I even left my cigarettes at my friends house. Don’t even feel like one.

I was going so well there for a while, I hadn’t smoked it over 2 weeks around, then I went out for my friends Birthday. EVERYBODY there smoked and the temptation was too much.

After that, with all the stress of these up and coming exams which I haven’t studied for, I’m feeling the craving I get when things aren’t going my way.

Well, overall I’m doing really well seeing as I’m only smoking about 15 a week tops now that I’ve cut down on drinking

I could have asked a couple of people for cigarettes today, but I did not, and now I feel brilliant cos I exercised a little used thing that I apparently possess called willpower.

yes yes

I now have a terrible cold which I think I can blame somewhat on my smoking far too much on Halloween and on Sat too. Boo hoo

I’ve started smoking rolling tobacco and this has really helped me cut down.

I bought one pack over 2 weeks ago now and I still have quite a bit left! I find that since I’ve never learned how to roll, and it takes me so long to roll such a crap cigarette, that most of the time I just can’t be bothered to smoke. Then again, when I get really stressed out or if I’m drinking I can still have my fix.

Beforehand I’d buy a ten or twenty pack if I was drinking or stressed or something, and then smoke more than I actually wanted just because they were there. Now that I actually have to make some sort of effort I’m smoking less and less every week!

Dammit smoking again last night. It’s always the drinking that gets to me.

I bought a bloody 10 pack last night because I was drinking… grrr