have conversations late into the night with fascinating people

I never thought I was one to actually talk on the phone with someone I met online, but I met this boy online. He happens to be my COMPLETE opposite, but so opposite in a way that makes us exactly the same (if that makes any sense).

He is 21, lives 500 miles away, is 6’5”, smokes, drinks, has done practically every drug ever known, ran away from home, has a tattoo, rides a motorcycle, was engaged, has a southern accent, and has such a sweet heart. I am so deeply infatuated with him, it kills me.

So we have been talking on the phone for probably 3 weeks now, about everything, honest. He is a genius, everything he says is some small revelation to me. Its unreal.

But I’m VERY confused,

What are my intentions supposed to be?
How do I tell him how fascinating he is?
How do I tell him he is unlike anyone I have ever known?
How do I keep this up and where do I go from here?

????

Anyway, as Christmas season rapidly approaches, I want to accomplish this goal even more. Usually I wouldn’t like staying up all night sitting outside with someone or talking to them on the phone, but during christmas I feel like night time is when the world wakes up as soon as we go to sleep. The lights from the houses glow and the decorations too and it’s almost as if you can feel the spirit of the season once the people go away. Though I’ve never been opposed to sharing thoughts with fascinating people, I feel like now it’s just such a more enjoyable setting that any conversation would automatically be more fascinating. There is this one boy from school I used to talk to alot at night (well, as well as at school). I never told him, but he is a fascinating person. Whenever he talks, for some reason, I never want him to stop. He has such an honest quality about him, integrity I guess it is, that makes me want to hear everything about him. He is just a generally good, sincere person. He is the reason that this topic is one of my 43 things. We’ve stopped talking so often lately. And as I said earlier, because of christmas and the general holiday season, I really want to pick up where we left off. I could learn alot from him. And I think if he gave me a chance, I could be good for him too.